singmelovesongs

i have decided that i am re-writing my own story and i’ve cast us as the protagonists i hope you don’t mind i’ve painted us in this electric blue light and we kind of just glow and we don’t even do much we go to the zoo and you call me monkey and we lie in bed for days and my eyes trace your hair line and my mind wonders if our kids will have your jaw and somehow what we have is all the world really needs to keep on keeping on and we have saved the day again

lately i've been finding myself forgetting to inhale reminding myself to breathe about you and lately i've been finding myself thinking drinking about you and in between sips and trips i tend to think about the way you maintain that certain amount of distance between us when we wake up in the morning when you watch my face like you're waiting for hints like you have no clue that all i'm thinking about all i ever think about is that i wish you would pull me closer

it's just that i remember you hated it when i was cold and i remember that when i woke up you did too to hold me and remind me you were still there now i wake up and you're not still there and i am cold all the time and it's just that i tried not to write about you because if i didn't it meant i didn't love you but here i am words disjointed and mind disjointed and i guess i guess i did i guess i loved you love you

i want to feel the air and touch the sky because it's so close i want to wrap my fingers in the clouds and drag them down around my shoulders i want the universe to expand for me to eat me up whole and i want to touch the sky i want to tear open my lungs and saturate them with atmosphere i want to stand with my arms wide open and feel the sky in my fingertips i want to touch the sky and i want to know that even if i am alone i will have the sky i will have touched the sky i want to touch the sky i want to wear a cloak of universes and i want you to feel all of them i want the stars to touch your nerve endings and explode i want to feel th

you have brought out every inch of crazy i am not a jealous nail biting bitch singing swear words in cabs and punching bedroom walls i am nonchalant a little too good looking and funny as hell but you bring out all shades of insanity and i am officially salivating at the thought of ripping her tiny shorts to even smaller shreds and giving her a bald spot because she rubbed her ass on your cock do you care? no do i? fuck you

a shaky hand to hold your drink a quivering finger to point out your flaws a pre-earthquake rumble through your limbs to spill your contents fragile handle with care a shaky hand to spill your drink what's benign about a tremor a warning a rumble through the jungle a menagerie of trembles what's benign about losing control i'll tell you maybe just maybe it won't kill me oh goodie thank god for that thank god for benign essential tremors maybe i should lose control surrender to benign essential tremors hear your voice and feel you a pentecostal experience where your nerve endings become my nerve endings and the world shakes from the voltage a

you are a flower of wrath a poison laced with beauty a melancholic love potion waiting to be drunk a poison laced with beauty you are havoc in a sunday hat waiting to be drunk to be relished just one more time you are havoc in a sunday hat your petals fall one by one to be relished just one more time you explore you consume you destroy your petals fall one by one a melancholic love potion you explore you consume you destroy you are a flower of wrath

you are a walking piece of art ink fed dreams of clouds and skies merged into breath of dragons and when you cry the crystalline salt lights up the eyes of the woman on your chest and she dances across your sternum a slow sweet cadence seducing the dragon who breathes down your ribs and into your pelvis where a single rose a single rose for me sits and blooms and dies one petal at a time