loved/love

it's just that
i remember
you hated it when i was cold
and i remember
that when i woke up
you did too
to hold me
and remind me you
were still there

now
i wake up
and you're not
still there
and i
am cold
all the time

and it's just that
i tried not to write about you
because if i didn't
it meant i
didn't love you
but here i am
words
disjointed
and mind
disjointed

and i guess
i guess i did
i guess i loved you
love you