superficial wounds

2:05 am let-downs and you are just a
telephone call away.

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lying barebacked on your trampoline naming
tiny stars after dead relatives
to never let me forget you even when it's
all i want to do.

contemplating poison ivy or arsenic
embedded in your next play-thing
so that she can damage you as much as you
plan to damage her.

knowing you're a thousand night-skies away
swimming with fishes and mermaids quotidiennement
rips my heart to shreds-
even though all i want to do is forget.

you and you silver tongue have got you far enough-
now you need heart.

(the one thing you just don't have.)

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tell me it was a lie and
tell me you didn't mean any of those words
you engraved in my outer epidermis.

tell me it was opposite day and
tell me it was a dare and
tell me that you still love me with every hair
on your head and that you never meant
to leave.

fuck you and your words and eyes and scalpels-
you've cut me too deep this time.

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and the world just keeps spinning faster and faster,
and the screams become louder than the laughter,
and the smiles get drowned in an ocean of tears.

the world just keeps spinning, and i'm losing my balance.