film cameras and dictionaries.

because life doesnt seem to be worth it anymore, because they say things that make me believe it, because my mind lies, because the world spins too fast, because im losing my balance, because you told me how, because its gone, because its still there, because i tried, because you didnt, because you never trusted me, because it never worked out, because you were too late, because it was too fast, because it shouldnt matter, because it still does, because no one cares, because no one knows, because its only me, because i made it that way, because i wasnt good enough, because it hurt so much, because i lost so much, because im forgetting, because i remember, because it all makes sense, because none of it does, because its over, because im me.








i sit wishing for milky ways and daisies and band aids,
but it never works, no matter how many different stars i pick.